Wednesday, July 30, 2008

I hate days like these...

Today has been one of those just very crappy days that you just wish would go away...fast. To start my day off, I gained a whopping three pounds. Let me give you a little insight. My very awesome friend and I weigh in every single week since last May with the obvious intention to lose weight. In the last 14 months, I have maybe lost a total of four pounds...not what I was hoping for. Within the last few months, we have decided that whoever gains weight or the most weight in a week has to wear this heinous looking bracelet to let people know we gained weight. It's a bad deal. Anywho, that is what happened....so now I'm stuck with the bracelet of shame.

Then, I get to work and no less than an hour later, I get a phone call saying my husband hasn't picked up our kids from daycare, which means my son is ten minutes late for his haircut. So I ended up having to leave to pick them up to bring him to his haircut. In the meantime, I get a phone call from my mom saying my grandpa is not doing well and if I don't go see him, I may not get the chance....

I'm tired and exhausted. I spent 3 hours at the nursing home watching my grandpa try to breathe and realize that this is it....It's a hard thing to watch, even when you've known for awhile that it was coming soon. It's never easy watching those around you hurt when you hurt so bad too.

We will have to see how the next few days go. We were supposed to leave for vacation (something I've been waiting for for such a long time) on Saturday. We will have to see if that happens. Keep us in your prayers. It's going to be a long week.

I'm going to hit the pillow now! Thanks for listening to me! Goodnight!

Monday, July 28, 2008

Never thought I would blog but....

I never ever thought that I would be the type to blog, but I see more and more of it around lately, and it just makes me want to embrace the chaos in my life and share it with the world. The way I see it, I am not the only mother/wife who deals with this chaos. Why not embrace it and see what comes of it. Maybe I'll meet some other moms and form new friendships? Who knows, I just figure that it's worth a shot! I don't know if my blog has any specific topic, but I assume that it will mostly be about my life personally and with my family. Very simple I know....

I suppose I should start with a little bit about me. I'm one month shy of being 23 years old, yet when most people meet me their jaws drop to the floor when they hear that I am so young. I suppose it is because I have been married for 3 years and have two children (adorable ones if I do say so myself) ages 5 and 2 that pretty much keep me occupied. I just graduated from Northwestern College with a degree in Elementary Education with endorsements in early childhood and reading. I had my daughter, Jaedyn when I was a senior in high school and I vowed that I would keep following my dreams of becoming a school teacher so that one day I could help her reach for hers. I just recently took a job as lead preschool teacher at a nearby preschool and on the side run my own business sharing my love for books with parents and children by being an Usborne books consultant. It is so rewarding and is my way of sharing the importance of reading with those around me!

There are a lot of missing pieces to this puzzle I call my life. I hope that it is not confusing and that I am able to share those pieces as I continue to blog. I guess my purpose is not to see that others are like me, but maybe to show somebody else who has ever been at a low point in their life, as I have often been in my own, that "this too will pass" and if you just keep truckin, life eventually smooths out the rough patches on it's own. Anyways, it's already 1:15 in the morning here, and I believe that it is far past my bedtime! Lots of things to do tomorrow......

Mandi